Most of what I endure as a victim of malicious stalking (branded as “predictive policing” and “threat monitoring”) hinges on 5 Joseph Goebbels-sized lies.
(1) That I pose a threat to people in a racial or gender context, that I’m somehow a “racist” or “danger to women and children.” Read on for my ridiculous rebuttal.
(2) That I am “mentally ill” and just plain crazy. Like, “voices in my head” crazy. I’m here to just set that straight. There definitely is nothing even remotely close to the symptoms of “schizophrenia” going on in my brain. I almost wish there were, that I could be so “crazy” that I’m checked out from reality and utterly indifferent to the unfortunately very real surveillance issues I bring up on this page. The only “hallucinations” that need addressing, esp as pertains to real human beings like me being singled out in virtually all public spaces by predictive algorithms, are those at this link.
(3) That I’m just plain “aggressive,” which is the very adjective through which my home town, Portland, Oregon, managed to eradicate every conspicuously homeless person from our city center and replace city leadership with Law & Order Republicans.
(4) That I am an “anti-government extremist.” To be clear, I hate the US fed gov. I hate the police. I hate the justice system here. You should too. They’ve destroyed every part of my life maliciously (I simply can no longer attribute this to mere incompetence, it’s pure malice) and continue to attack every part of my life on this and the other 4 false premises. I build things back up only to have them taken down by these institutions time and time again, increasingly by “private” parties that can’t be directly linked, which claim what they do, or source to friendly third parties, somehow promotes a murky “greater good” by protecting all of you. And by “extremist” they’re trying to conjure an image of a sick individual building bombs in his mom’s basement, which is part of their ongoing strategy to discredit, minimize, ridicule, and destroy me, and my warnings about what they’re doing to all of us via the extremely rapid buildout of a runaway Surveillance State, which I also address throughout my page.
(5) That I’m a garden variety criminal, a threat to steal from or vandalize property, kidnap children, deface things, light things on fire (this by the way being a “mental illness” stereotype, that “voices” implore one to do things they have no control or discretion over, which is clearly absurd but apparently not to hysterial Americans who take this utter nonsense very seriously), or a destitute drug addict.
Every last thing ever said about me by American authorities, esp police and police-friendly psychiatrists - and I mean everything, including “crime reports” - is a Big Lie intentionally recorded officially to preemptively discredit, and more importantly justify sick and evil attacks on me, that they have actively and consistently carried out with ill intent, as retribution.
What they’re really trying to say is “you criticize and dig into our dealings, esp those of law enforcement (all levels) and might embarrass us and damage our credibility.” So they strike back by discrediting and attacking the critic. “Insane,” “radical,” “aggressive,” “racist,” “conspiracy theorist,” “criminal,” “unpredictable,” “violent,” all the usual American propagandist bullshit. Divide-and-conquer shit. Ostracization. Monster-making. Bad-Jacketing. This page is neutralized by being officially labeled my “manifesto.” All the predictable tools contained within the Soft Fascism Swiss Army Knife will be perpetually deployed against me until the day American law enforcement (as carried out by increasingly friendly “private” third parties) finally kill me.
What American cops and private cop-friendly “algorithmic risk identifiers” want you to believe is that I’m the next iteration of The MAGA Bomber, of Kaczynski, of the El Paso shooter, that I spend my days plotting against Americans when in fact 100% of my time, my energy, my thoughts, are obsessively consumed by my “plot” to ESCAPE from Americans, who are by and large actually crazy, to get out before it’s too late for me.
If you’ve ever been on the outs with America’s powerful establishment, you probably understand how hard this is. Everybody, and I mean everybody, does America’s bidding. Nobody has more power and will to exert transnational repression than the USA, especially when every video feed and cell phone and satellite and web activity is sending your whereabouts to servers they own no matter whose jurisdictional boundaries you’re inside of. Morever, the USA is so vital to every other country’s economy that everyone else simply follow their orders, abides by their rules, tolerates their horrid transgressions and disrespect, and generally acts as America’s subservient little bitch. And their brand is so strong that there is never any shortage of pro-America “opposition” within the borders of any country I seek refuge in (Yes, even and in some ways especially Cuba, my most recent and telling test of this).
Note that all three of these things are standardless, slippery slope adjectives that bypass courts, due process, burdens of proof, rely on anecdotal reports, etc. All of these themes have been pushed by law enforcement “insiders” in the communities I reside in.
Anyone who believes and acts on these official lies is a complete fool. Which means “most of you who I have ever directed to this page.”
What nobody ever does is take a retroactive look at my accusers, to see how utterly completely connected they are, either by personal and professional association, or ideology and values. These are the people who really do sit around watching other people, they’re like professional haters, and they have a huge advantage over me via their access to their networks, preferential treatment by police and government, and more importantly, access to technology - the tracking of car, movements (even on my own property), phones, laptops, routers, biometrics, even non-physical movements like money transfers - that is already used to stalk me or justify a rationale for stalking me (branded as “protecting” themselves, their employees, etc). They have total control over all things - my movements, my narrative, my reputation. My abusers totally own the narrative by which I’m the threat when I’m so clearly and overwhelmingly the target in this dynamic. They have normalized a lens through which I’m viewed as sub-human, akin to a pest whose extermination is valid, just, and necessary.
My interactions with “justice” have pretty much all been on this level.
https://www.huffpost.com/entry/nancy-mace-accosted-us-capitol_n_675965a1e4b04fd5c3669c61
But for me it’s usually not a handshake, merely a statement - “It seems every time I carry a locatable device on me I encounter white trash vigilantes like you pulled over just watching my …” and before the “sh” on “trash” has even escaped my lips I (very often) have found myself the subject of a criminal complaint to a 911 operator about an “aggressive” man "on drugs” who is “yelling” (and this is not always but more often than not all while the caller is yelling, or in some other form supplying some form of pressure or intimidation like “the cops are coming and I’m going to have you arrested / sued / trespassed” and I’m not yelling or threatening anything at all).
So in essence, as is my reputation, I am in fact racist. “White trash” is apparently a race-based slur. I also, unfortunately, happen to be of Swiss, German, Irish, and English descent. I’m WHITE AS FUCK (there’s that sliver of Native American I learned I had when I was desperately trying to get into a UC school in the 1990’s but apparently … not nearly enough, according to all who assess me for any reason I am 100% whizzite). And I have a criminal record, a mental health record, I’m quite sure many would call me “white trash,” and in fact I’m quite sure the only reason the white trash vigilantes hunting me down in the first place are calling 911 is due to the fact that they believe themselves to be of a superior status, that I am just that - white trash -and they are not. That I’m a Nobody who can’t fight back against their abuse.
Mind you, I’m also not running for office and have no plans to. I am not head of a non-profit and have no plans to be. At no point, since I got out of the public education business 15 years ago, did I ever say “I vow to always be politically correct.” I understand I could choose other words to convey a point. I don’t care. I believe I spent years and years taking the so-called High Road and I got punked even worse by these people, who see that as passivity and sign of weakness to be attacked. Perhaps we don’t all agree that “White Trash” is the best word choice, but perhaps we haven’t all been in a situation where you come to realize this is the one term that actually hits these losers where it hurts because well … I mean … it’s literally what and who they are. These are loser motherfuckers who follow other motherfuckers around so they can eliminate them by way of aggressive cop-calling on false pretenses. If you have a better term, I’m all ears, I’d love to know how I could describe them more accurately without sacrificing the strength of my own convictions and degrading myself in the process.
There is a massive, massive difference between Real Crazy and Systemically Oppressed Crazy, with me representing the latter. In fact, I would argue that an unbelievably high percentage of Americans, relative to citizens of other countries, determined by some authority to be “mentally ill” are not even close to meeting any objective criteria for such a condition in a normal country. The institutions of mental health, specifically as pertains to such malleable and convenient diagnoses as “delusions,” are more often a weapon of authorities which discredit, marginalize, and sometimes even attempt to confine dissenters and threats to various establishments or people.
Moreover, the constant crimes committed against me by bigots armed with digital tracking devices - stalking, harassment, intimidation, theft of biometric and personal and real-time location information, of communications and financial and travel data, etc - are far, far more serious than the petty crap they purport to be preventing "(i.e. “organized shoplifting”) or the outright sensational lies they push to make what they’re doing seem less bad if not outright necessary (the prevention of kidnapping and human trafficking, I have heard lately, repeatedly - like, um, wow, as I’ve said, bigotry is like a liquid, it will find any crack it can and keep flowing to the lowest point).
Once the “crazy” tag is adhered officially, as with The Scarlet Letter, the rest snowballs from there. This is explained very well by Ashley Peterson on my “Required Reading” list. Nothing empowers stupid people to act with more malice than the “crazy person.” It’s the one person in their community who makes them feel less inadequate about themselves. The same applies to the exceedingly Self-Righteous among you. Nothing makes you feel more sure of your God-Given Goodness than doing very bad things to stop The Bad Guy.
All of this is predicated on basically one massive lie, officialized by a very corrupt American police institution, a single non-incident that lasted maybe 10 seconds which has paved the way for so many more similar transgressions against me under the absurd presumption that I, the scapegoat, the whipping boy, the falsely accused, am in fact to this day the “threat,” when any basic understanding of what’s really going on immediately reveals me to be the target.
Put simply, I was accused of a “hate crime” in 2017 by a horrible shameless liar who I know was already discriminating against me and already targeting my device / vehicle, along with many other Neighborhood Watch or in this person’s case Business Watch group members who showed a remarkable propensity for being exceptionally (a) “Law and Order”-oriented people and (b) unusually in love with God, Jesus, Christ, Patriotism, etc …. the opposite of the kinds of people I would ever choose to hang out with in my real life, let’s just say. I felt then that there was just a gap in comprehension by the courts, that it was misunderstood how malicious tracking technologies allowed what happened to happen. I now see that that was by design, that much of this “crowdsourced” surveillance to God’s Army is in fact driven by the justice system and the police, institutions chock-full of slimy slippery little liars and backstabbing bureaucrats and sycophants. There is in fact massive societal pressure and even free will to suppress the reality of the surveillance paradigm, and to punish me indefinitely for supplying friction against its inevitable conquest. The verdict rendered against me was not justice, but rather the confirmation of my neutralization, that the actual threat I pose had been removed by way of discrediting permanently, and harshly making an example of, its messenger.
I was told to not go to trial and I think my lawyer was a piece of shit for this. He strongly encouraged me to plead “mental health” which I strongly, strongly regret. The devilish detail was that I was to admit to being “delusional,” which was the pre-planned finding of a court-friendly “expert.” The real aim, I obviously know now, wasn’t to present me a “deal” - this was no deal at all - but to discredit any and everything I might say in court about surveillance tech and, specifically, that my car and cell phone were already located and tracked by malicious actors with existing ties to police. In fact, this dynamic carries on to this day, in real-time, and the discreditor now is the official reason I need to be surveiled. It’s not a matter of whether or not I am under targeted community surveillance, in other words - I am - it’s that it’s necessary because of my heinously dangerous behavior. Ha. I have learned that in order to destroy a life under the Predictive Policing surveillance paragidm, all you need to do is drum up a single instance of police contact, for any reason, and write the most viciously defamatory report possible. The key to this lies inside the quotation marks. Whatever is the most unbelievably over-the-top thing you can fit in there, do it. There are no consequences for either the reporting officer or the attacker-disguised-as-the-victim. And if any charges can be filed, crocodile tears are very helpful in a court setting. Play to existing trends and known sympathies of your jury. This is an easy one in Portland, Oregon.
Many things stood out to me while I was awaiting my kangaroo trial.
(1) Race roles were reversed - my “white friends” in jail turned on me when they got hold of the newspaper with the allegations (literal quote from the Head White Dude (incarcerated environments are very clearly racially segregated, by the way): “I myself am a separatist, but my sister has a half-Mexican kid, and so that’s fucked up!” haha), whereas my Mexican workout buddies (I was in all-out marathon mode at the time, so I settled for burpees with these dudes so as not to lose too much fitness) were very skeptical and thus supportive of me. Good thing I’m such a fitness junkie, I guess? I had “money in the bank” with these dudes unwittingly from all the workout sessions, I honestly didn’t even know I was accused of a “hate crime” until a week in, so I was as surprised as everyone else that I was suddenly a racist according to the DA and The Oregonian …. The thing that makes fellow convicts healthily skeptical is experience. They too have been through this: “I may be guilty of charge X, but I’m not guilty of crazy ass charges Y and Z.” Guilty people lie to get out of things, but especially in America, accusers lie for personal and/or financial gain. The system heavily incentivizes this, unequivocally favors women over men, and supplies both monetary and self-esteem boosts to “victims” (victims get TONS of positive attention and special treatment, this cannot be underestimated) … People who’ve dealt with the system via custody, divorce, or various DHS “abuse/neglect” allegations of “anonymous” complaints know this too.
(2) All literature available to me in jail had a Christian theme. You might see I recommended “Tattoos on the Heart” in my required reading. That was my go-to jail book. But it’s not lost on me why it was made available to me versus other possible options.
(3) Push-back in the Injustice System is punished. Don’t insist on your innocence. Grovel! In hindsight the better tactic might have been to go with the flow of their lies. I always felt it would have been better PR to be like “oh my God you’re SO RIGHT, I am so racist, I mean —- I was racist, then I saw this court-referred shrink for 6 months, and s/he changed me,” and then put out a bunch of feel-good self-aggrandizing Youtube videos of me and a Mexican lady holding hands and high-fiving at one of these marathon Finish Lines while dedicating an oversized publicly photographed $500 check to the betterment of immigrants to America. But I never did, never could, never will, because unlike my accusers, unlike the police, unlike the justice system, unlike my local Neighborhood Watch cults, I don’t tell lies and I don’t live lies.
(4) I learned who my real friends are. Apparently nobody, literally no one. I think 2 people reached out to me in total. Even that felt like a token courtesy. I’ve not seen or heard from several of my then-”friends” ever since. Just gone. Didn’t want to vouch for me, either because I was a “friend” due to some utility I supplied and not for any legitimate reason, because I was seen as too risky to be associated with, or because the hype was considered credible. Also, nothing ever heard or said from past friends, those who I felt could have easily come out of the woodwork to establish that I am a credibly “not racist” person. Or maybe they’re afraid of “social credit scoring” ramifications.
I am often reminded of the old comical cliche, the Old White Guy who is a running joke in cinema, at the country club indignantly claiming “But I have Black friends!” I suddenly empathize with Old White Country Club Guy. Like, how do you prove “not racist?” What an absurdity. And what if you thought you had friends who aren’t your friends at all? I had people in my past I expected to immediately stick up for me, and yet in my present (and that continues to this day) I learned that in fact I had nobody. It’s a very powerless and frustrating position to be in. Absurd really. So unlike White Country Club Guy, I can’t even play the “friends” card because apparently all of my “friends” were false and I continue to be confused as to why they pretended to be friends in the first place. Maybe they were rooting for this outcome? Maybe this is seen as deserved (and if it is, what exactly did I do?).
I feel nobody ever really understood the facts of the case, which were simply - they dropped all charges tied to “hate crimes” when they quickly realized this was a complete fabrication. All I was ever convicted of was kicking a car once, saying “get the f** away from me b**” which apparently constituted “menacing” (highly, highly, highly suspect), and the rest was quietly dropped because in 2017 (and the same would happen today in 2024) it was bad politics for a “Liberal” Multnomah County DA to admit they were flat-out wrong, let alone do the actual right thing and go after the false accuser as hard as she and they went after me.
I became a felon, for - brace yourself - putting a single dent in a car with my foot - that’s it! Virtually no difference in society between this, and attempted murder, or rape, or a vicious assault, because the state statute calls “Criminal Mischief” a full-blown felony if it can be argued $1K of damage was done. I say this a lot to people who continue to discriminate against me harshly based on this - don’t think it can’t happen to you, and if it does, I hope the fallout is just as bad as it was for me.
As to “hate crimes,” consider that while I sat there awaiting my fate, the following occurred as presented to me via “the news” in my daily 3 hours out of my cage:
(1) Uncle Reo, uncle of Snoop and father of WWE star Sasha Banks, had Uncle Reo’s Ribs burned to the ground the very weekend he was out of town. I pretty know a real hate crime when I see one. I know the kinds of people who aggressively followed me in my car when I went into that restaurant to get takeout.
(2) Jeremy Christian murdered two dudes trying to stop actual real racial harassment by slashing their throats with a knife and showed no remorse. He had a very easy to spot history of red flags that I did not have and still do not have, unless you ask the police who are favoritists of Christian’s ideology.
***And you know what else really stood out in my mind around that era that didn’t get much airplay especially considering her high profile and obvious reasons to suspect a motive given what a flashpoint 2017 was in America? This one! Just before it I was in Boston running the marathon so it hit the local news. It was ruled a SUICIDE but even before my apparent “hate crime” I’m sitting there like “why the f* would she ever do that? It’s almost impossible in fact give the circumstances, that she has just been promoted to unprecedented power and success., that SHE has a motive to end her life as opposed to MILLIONS OF OTHER ANGRY AMERICANS having a very very very clear motive. to do the same.”
https://www.cnn.com/2017/04/13/us/sheila-abdus-salaam-judge-hudson-river/index.html
There are other things that really hurt me through this process, namely the utterly lack of support from my family, despite their portraying themselves as The Only Support I’ve Got. They’re the opposite of that. They waged a multi-year war on me to convince the world, and the police, that I’m a Crazy Person because they disapproved of my life choices. Simple as that. Happens all the time in this country. I felt completely and supremely sold out and disrespected by these people and still do. My father, Peter “Tony” Leineweber, continues to bring this up over and over as an example of “not taking accountability” when I have insisted privately to him, over and over, that this is flat-out not true. Tony is the kind of person who can literally make a phone call and things happen. Trust me, he’s done this plenty of times in ways that have ruined me as a person unfairly. He never did anything for me in this instance but throw me under the bus. Time after time after time. Tony had a long time to gather the facts. He seems to harbor unreasonable resentments towards me which cloud his judgment. He’s the guy who insists I’m Very Crazy and Need to be Hospitalized. This is my Father! Look at my life! Maybe it’s not the best, but there’s plenty to be proud of. I would LOVE to be the father of a Serial Marathoner. I would LOVE to be the father of a self-started business owner, ESPECIALLY if said son did it all in spite of my own playerhating and being a tremendous obstacle to my success (it’s one reason I love Kobe Bryant, I was That Dude’s Biggest Hater until he just got it done so many fucking times I couldn’t help but love and respect him). I would LOVE to have a son who fought his way up from systemic oppression and dared defy the lies that others sought to make his self-definition. I would LOVE to have a son who is terrible at keeping a tidy house but awesome at doing what is right no matter what. I would love to have a son who is … well … just like me! I guess I’m biased. I LOVE ME! I guess that’s an unpopular opinion. I unfortunately have to now work alongside him as he managed to defraud me into making him an “owner” in my company. This was a horrible mistake on my part for multiple reasons. The short-term allure was my own oppression, the perceived value of having Tony and Heidi’s name on everything while I’m being hunted down by cops, feds, and “friends” 24/7. The reality is that he’s the same guy who, despite having a net worth I imagine to outnumber my own by I assume 500 to 1, wouldn’t offer up a single solitary DIME to fund it when I was like “if you don’t help I have to liquidate my 401k,” and who repeatedly picked fights with me and mocked me when I was getting my shit going and he was just sitting on his fat ass judging it a failure already. Now that he is an undeserved “owner,” you come to see the insanity, the utter ineptitude, of this dude, and you’re like, “holy shit, it’s even worse than I thought.” This motherfucker can literally make the simple act of logging into an account and downloading a document require multiple meetings, several months, and numerous written accounts of what’s happening. He makes the “Beautiful Mind” guy look sane. And that would all be fine if not for our past, that TONY is the motherfucker who first put me on the Police Industrial Complex radar in 2016, which no doubt led to my engineered arrest just a few months later. Tony called the cops for …. get this … DANCING. Yep. I was implored to visit, got a text from mom when I otherwise would have just gone home, I show up, dude is drunk and in a foul mood as per usual. That’s all good until I say “hi” and he waves me off and snaps his finger in my direction as if to say “SHUT UP!” I look at what’s so important that I’m interrupting and it’s … of course, and fittingly because these same losers were to crucify me just 8 months later … the Local Republican-Ass News channel beaming some bullshit about “child molesters” into his simplistic chimp brain … and this IMPORTANT INFORMATION CANNOT BE INTERRUPTED for any reason under any circumstances. Tony’s Bullshit always, always, always as a kid prompted me to adopt the role of Class Clown, I was the kid who always laughed when everyone else zipped their lip and let him throw things, punch the wall, berate my mom for apparently failing to put salt and pepper on the table (after cooking a full meal plus dessert for 5 people), all that Old Guard White Guy Bullshit. So anyway, as had been my family role for years, I just got into character, started getting all up in Tony’s line of sight to the Idiot Box, dancing my ass off, just putting on a show I felt was more compelling than the Republican Machine. He did not agree apparently haha. Tony snapped harder, warned me to move it, so I did! I moved closer! I got all up in his motherfuckin’ space, and turned around and started shaking and quaking my booty all up in his face like Only Joe Leineweber Can Do and it was an undeniably irresistable performance. Tony did not agree. While my obvious intent was to loosen this guy up, bring some basic levity to an unreasonable situation, Tony jumped up and started to chest bump me, yell up in my face like those Old School MLB umpires and managers, and then implore me to GET OUT OF MY HOUSE! Tony did not understand how put out I was by this comment, given how far away my house was and what an effort (and how much gas money it took) to even be in the same space with his sorry ass. So I kind of was like “hell naw dude, I’m at least getting FOOD out of this degrading interaction” and picked up a pre-made tuna melt my mother had set on a nearby table in anticipation of a more harmonious family gathering. I made it part of my sexy ass dance, just to remind Tony that I’m The Dom (if you know the reference you know it), at which point Tony and his wife reminded ME that they are the Unimpugnable Karens. I was told to “GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE” which kind of killed my vibe so I stopped dancing unfortunately. However, I did not “get the fuck out of his house” as he demanded. I just stood there. At which point this super fun guy got further up into my space and slapped the shit out of my arm, sending tuna and swiss and sourdough flying ALL FUCKING OVER THE PLACE hahahahaha. I use these long “ha” chains to kind of capture the “in the moment” vibe. I didn’t know this and this alone was to seal a fate for eternity and precipitate my early death. Anyway, Heidi and Tony, and mind you Heidi was fresh off of breaking it off with her “Affair Boyfriend” which I think was a mistake, stand shoulder to shoulder like those sorry ass viral meme White People in St. Louis and call 911! In the moment, and especially because I wasn’t very experienced with law enforcement abuses, I calmly said “go ahead, you are obviously the only person here who assaulted someone.” And so this led to an incident that forever “radicalized” me if not for the fact I’ve been through literally dozens of similar incidents ever since, not a reflection of me but the “customer retention” model of law enforcement in the US that ruins all of our lives. SO - cops get there, and it’s a ridiculous amount of these punk ass crackaz, 8 maybe??? I explain what happened, confidently in fact, thinking this is going to backfire, that since Tony actually threw a punch that he would face justice for using 911 as a weapon. WRONNNNNNNG!!!! haha. What this became was an indictment of me, that my behavior in the house constituted a serious “mental illness,” and my parents took it upon themselves to compound matters by saying “he is VERY PARANOID of POLICE!” which was based on my 100% true private complaints I’d made to them about how Clackamas and Milwaukie Oregon police had been treating me since I’d moved into their county/city 6 months prior. So that was like blood in the water, haha. These pink-faced fucking pigs heard that and they WENT THE FUCK IN on me, wrote the most ridiculous and defamatory and humiliating report one ever could, preying on my parents’ naivety as to what law enforcement is really there fore, and … been crazy ever since. When I was thrust into the cop car in 2017 just 8 months later, it already said in big bright letters on the bitch ass cop’s console that I have a “Suspected Mental Illness” and that’s how the rest of it all spiraled from there … from just trying to make Tony Bitch Ass Punk Ass Leineweber break out of his horrifically vibe-killing slump. By the way, he’s still in it. It’s funny how people in certain specific “roles” in society talk about “code switching.” I have to do it often to protect myself. But also, how Tone and Heid do it all the fucking time to protect their reputation. A great example is when their grandkids visit. I’ve always found that amusing, how old cynical bitch ass people go to great lengths to portray me as dangerous and deranged to the power structures but when more neutral third parties are in the house they’re on their best behavior. Well same with the grandkids. When those kids come over, we’re on the same page, and everything is all good, all we do is have fun, just like me and the dogs used to, and suddenly my own parents / their grandparents exhibit their own best behavior and don’t treat me the way they had previously, suddenly I’m like this “ally” and I think that’s really telling of how I’m valued … as “good Uncle” when it’s advantageous to how OTHERS perceive them, and by the same token “deranged maniac” when it serves their deep-seeded need to perpetually pander to those whose acceptance might impart benefits that Joe Will Never Get, namely, BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT WHEN I HIT THE SHIT OUT OF MY SON 50+ TIMES. And that’s where I realize I’m not in fact the Milk Man’s Son. I think my own peers always judged me a liability, too emotional, too difficult, despite constantly proving to be the lone catalyst who took them from an Utter Fucking Bullshit Brand to life-securing success (hey Sam and Dan McCoy let me know when I GET MY MONEY you sorry motherfuckers! Haha), amazing what a useless “paranoid schizophrenic” can do for other people’s fortunes hahahahahahaha ….. but I think sometimes when I have to deal with Tony I feel like “it’s not your fault Joe, compared to the Old Block you’ve actually done the most remarkable job any person could given your genetic disadvantage”) And when challenged in any way, Tony is the guy who angrily jumps up, accuses me of being CRAZY, and threatens to contact police. He literally IS the very demographic that has destroyed me. I genuinely believe my mom fucked the milk man (she is currently involved in her second affair in 8 years that I know about right now, it’s not unrealistic!), there’s just no way this guy and me are the same person. Tony is the guy who between 2015 and 2022 physically hit and threatened me so many times I cannot even add it up, but does so with impunity, and in fact he is the one person who spawned the original “mental health” crusade against Joe Leineweber. I’m not saying any of this hurt me per se, but it’s a clear example of our power imbalance, that he can and has done that and simultaneously covered by calling me “crazy,” in the company of Very Important People and/or police, to discredit my claims. And to this day I am profiled by a massively powerful and well-funded community of both official cops and informal bitch ass motherfuckers who just stalk people for free as … get this … a THREAT TO TONY. I mean what the fuck… This dynamic is similar to his neighbor who clearly committed a crime against me, is documented doing so, and will never be booked and charged for it even as it’s literally worse than the Fake Ass Crime that destroyed every possible facet of my life you can imagine. That video by the way isn’t to point out how horrible my “victimhood” is, it’s to point out double standards, that I did less and got 1,000,000 times more for it, and still pay the price of my apparent crime, including by that fuckstain motherfucker, it’s about egregiously unequal application of the law and why certain people “have it coming” or “provoked it” and certain people encounter “fine people on both sides” defenses from so-called neutral third parties, even as they are reported by 18 honkies for “dog off leash” and convicted of felonies for “making someone feel fear” (as corroborated by “witnesses” who are their fucking complicit lying ass homies) with no evidence and no standard applied and no video and no photos and no anything whatsoever. So it’s funny “White Privilege” has been leveled at me in regard to my “mental health” plea, the idea that I got off easy, I was treated as if I actually killed someone when in fact I got so so so permanently screwed by superfluous speculative lies. Anyway, Tony already was a piece of shit, always has been, so even though his abuse is more egregious, it’s not surprising. My brother, John Leineweber, on the other hand, was a guy I felt really really really has let me down through this by simply standing back and saying nothing at all.
Like I’ve said on this page, “white privilege” is a misnomer, and White Power has nothing, utterly nothing to do with white hoods, it’s about real power, the kind that never has to make a show of it, who can kill you from behind closed doors and nobody will ever realize who really orchestrated it, it all falls on the cops, the security guards, the first responders, the private partners, the people they manipulated (many of them willingly). They’re the people who can DEFUND JOE LEINEWEBER (do you not believe I’ve lost $100,000’s via the things done to me in the name of “safety?” Trust I have and will never recoup any of it, in fact I’m blamed for my own theft victimhood) and in the same breath manufacture algorithms that define Joe Leineweber as an unhinged violent extremist for daring suggest we defund them in equal proportion. I have been under attack by Real White Power for a decade, and it’s not always what you think it is … just because I’m getting into it with some dude who seems to be a “person of color” out there occupying a rank-and-file “safety” role in the big bad world out there, don’t think for a moment that entire interaction wasn’t engineered by White Power, it most certainly was.
Why John? John, quite frankly, is way cooler than Tony. I think I’ve learned through Unclehood that my brother John is a super cool ass Dad, I mean that, I love his kids and I think they’re a reflection of him, and him really engaging with them and letting them be their best selves and being the perfect little balance of hands-off (like he doesn’t get into all that helicopter safety bullshit) and hands-on (he’s always at all their activities, always involved, always there where it matters). In other words, a way better dad than our dad. So this is not an attack on him overall.
HOWEVER - John is also The One Fucking Dude who was with me literally 10 seconds before the “attack.” John and Joe were just chillin’, watching I believe some Oklahoma City Thunder playoff game at Spirit of 77, the sports bar around the corner. John can’t literally vouch for what did or did not happen, I understand, technically he was not there at that very moment. But John is the one motherfucker who can be like “yo, this dude was chill, he wasn’t on some tirade about immigration, we were literally just sitting around shooting the shit and criticizing Russ Westbrook’s horrible decision-making, very low-key.” John is the one guy who could have definitively said “while I can’t claim to be a witness, given the circumstances of my interaction with Joe over 3 hours out of 3 hours and 10 seconds of activity, I would find it extremely, very very very difficult to ever believe that suddenly out of nowhere this guy tried to suddenly incite a Race War for no reason, or that he was possessed by some Mental Health Issues, and as his biological brother I would clearly dare serve as a character witness who can cast serious doubt over these crazy ass allegations.”
The fact is that John did not, and John never has, even as I’ve tried to express how important that would be to have Anyone Other Than Me corroborate that there might be a whole fucking lot more to the story. Anyone who’s ever been on the crucifix understands how little value your word has while you’re pinned to it, your entire fate depends on someone in the crowd stepping out and saying the exact same thing. I previously mentioned how I was Mass Ghosted right at this inflection point, that I referred to my own actions as a sort of “fight or flight” thing, what do you do when motherfuckers are constantly walking all over you already? I “fought” and I respect myelf for doing so, and I have “fought” many times since then, and I have been harshly punished every single time. Again, I RESPECT ME for doing so. Mind you, most of my “fight” simply involves telling the truth and shining a light on it, and there have been tons and tons of close calls since this incident, and I will never waver in what I’m doing and why, and my opinion as to why I’m being so harshly shut down for doing so. I AM PROUD OF ME, and I don’t give a fucking fuck what any of you fucking fuckers think. I just regret that Brody in my very strong opinion was killed as a result.
Well, the kangaroo court criminal circus brought about a “fight or flight” response from family and friends - do you stick up for this guy when he’s under fire, when it’s unpopular to do so, or do you bail, do you flee? And they all fled! Everybody. Every last person.
There’s actually another random guy this brings to mind. Maybe a little random here but … I had high school friend, by the name of Andrew Holguin. Mexican dad, White mom. I felt he was very proud of his Mexican heritage. I mentioned earlier my not-racist past in terms of my having duality in my childhood, growing up as a racial minority and then becoming one with the “white privilege” demographic of the West Hills. Well, Andrew had kind of a similar path only moreso, he was the kid from North Portland who never left North Portland who always commuted to our West Hills high school to be part of the Spanish Immersion program, so he was always kind of identifying that way, not really part of the culture he was in. So I feel he grew up in his own way “privileged” by exposure to this other side of the world but also kind of hyperaware of being different, it was a very “hoity toity” kind of school and culture and classism was pretty overt and so … anyway … I was one of those dudes who kind of had like “crossover appeal,” and we were buddies all the way through.
I also remember Andrew struggled with what I would call injustice in our school. He felt singled out and unfairly targeted by our resident campus cop Josh (who, amazingly by coincidence, was literally the guy at the courthouse who took the key to my shackles or whatever when I got off the bus from Inverness for my arraignment). I found this funny when he would say it later in life but he was like “we literally, in detention, drew up a concrete plan to kill this guy he was such an asshole” haha. Maybe that’s why he became a social worker, he experienced what he felt were both maybe soft (just the class bias built into being the kid who commutes to the rich kid district) and literal bias (nobody else in this bubble of privilege picks up on the fact that Josh deliberately fucks with the kid from the other side of the tracks, so it’s his burden to bear and nobody can relate and thereby advocate for better conditions).
Andrew went on to become a social worker, the very kind of position and profession that now in my opinion marginalizes me and convinces the world I’m insane and needs their help. As friendships often do, we drifted apart but I do recall having caught up with him just months before the “crime” on the phone, last time I’ve ever spoken to this dude.
Anyway trying to make my point finally … I had popped up on some Facebook thread that was a repost of my mugshot article, followed by all these stupid comments from people who I don’t even know but who apparently know me going in with some mixture of blame, that White Trash Karma thing (what a fucking asshole! I always KNEW this guy was a PIECE OF SHIT!), and sickeningly uninformed “sympathy” that is actually a disingenuous discreditor (clearly he is “sick,” this is just so SAD).
And then I saw the comment from Andrew and I was very upset. He was the guy who was supposed to vouch for me, ESPECIALLY being that he’s the guy with Mexican cred. Andrew and I may not be BFFs, but we had enough history … there was even a summer I recall in our early 20’s where he and our high school friend Alana kind of had this routine of just hanging out, kiling time I guess, and we slept off so many hangovers at this house that we called each other “brother” and “sister,” it was just as if we were like siblings for a few months there. Andrew even linked me up with Josh who was this great triathlete / marathoner who clearly planted that seed with me to get into the lifestyle I live now. The point here is that there were just so many points of “cred” I thought I had, that I’d be the guy who even if not your bestie you’d stick up for.
The comment, mind you coming from a Mexican-American friend who works in the field of social work, which is inextricably linked to both the criminal justice and mental health industries, was to the effect of “I had a conversation with Joe recently, he was VERY paranoid, I could tell, etc.” I felt totally tossed under the bus!
Our conversation was like, the usual shit you say when you haven’t seen someone in forever. Bullshit. Total surface level bullshit. “How’s your wife? How bout them Blazers? Where do you work now?” There was absolutely nothing in our discourse to let on that I was “paranoid,” so I felt really betrayed that he’d go public with something like that, which he never would have written/said other than to parrot whatever was already said in the media. Frankly I still don’t understand what the fuck that was driven by. Obviously he’s just Some Dude making a FB post, doesn’t remember it like I do, doesn’t understand the impact to me. I think maybe … it’s part of my own criticism of “social justice warriors.” I feel, frankly, that if Andrew’s identity is overly tied to, and especially if strings are attached professionally, to some cause such as the betterment of civil liberties for Latinos in America, it’s just too fucking risky for him to do anything other than deny association and shame me. Essentially I think it’s hedging, instead of taking a stand and being like “my ALL-Mexican Dad Martin was always cool with this dude,” the fact is Andrew wasn’t there, he doesn’t know, he’s acting on media reports and hearsay, and there’s also sort of that “why aren’t other people getting accused of Mexican hate crimes and only Joe?” that kind of makes him just be like “alright I’m bailing on this dude out of an abundance of caution and regard for my career prospects.” Honestly it’s a really bad look if he, or anyone in a similar position, were to do anything other than Go With The Flow.
***Can I just editorialize here at 12.20.24? I just want to add a disclaimer that this page wasn’t always this sloppy and written as if by a Very Stupid Person. The fact is I just have spent much of 2024 Getting Really Really Drunk, I basically just gave up. So that’s what you’re reading above and below, trust there was a time when these drafts were concise and made a point, and that time is not now, I think at this point I just need Some Woman to save me because this Me vs All Y’all dynamic is clearly not working for me haha.*** Anyway, read on for more drunken nonsense that can easily be construed as what my sorry court-appointed psychs called “anosognosia,” when the Crazy Motherfucker Sincerely Believes Everyone Else is Crazy and He is Doing Just Fine LOL.
I feel like it’s hard to express it and I think finally we’re at a point in society where we can abandon the race narrative but …. in all my dealings my real “identity” always was with the “hip hop culture.” A lot of Andrew and my bond was all about going to some hip hop show or whatever. Being white in the hip hop world is generally a constant struggle to hide what a fucking dork you are. But it’s generally understood you are at the bare minimum “not racist” participating in this subculture of America. Who just shows up and lays down some lyrics on Cool Edit and then is like “hey guys I gotta go commit a Hate Crime, be back in an hour?” I was HORRIBLE AT RAPPING (let’s just be clear, if you ever are unfortunate enough to hear any recorded raps by me, as a marathoner let’s put it this way - I currently average like 3:15s, not too fast, but my rap equivalent would be like a 6:32) but I still am in love with the whole hip hop thing, especially in my current status, what I just used to enjoy sonically, like the beats and vocal intonations but didn’t really get what these guys were saying, or maybe don’t even appreciate its credibility as pertains to injustice …. suddenly all makes sense to me, I relate to all of it, it’s almost like hip hop prepared me for this, dare I say has saved me? So I would go beyond “race” cred and ask “where are my rap people? Not a single fucking one of you doubts these allegations or thinks it might change my whole fucking life if you’d, like, simply vouch for a motherfucker?” Fools and cowards. Too bad my favorite Rap Friend Jesse DIED 14 months before this occurred, maybe he would have come out the woodwork and set shit straight. In fact thinking back, that was ANDREW that took my pic with my favorite MC Devin the Dude in Berkeley haha, that was one of those moments where the stars aligned for me. No moment you ever have with your peeps is ever stronger than the inevitable gravity of job / wife / kids / mortgage I have learned. In fact the more I think back on it the more pissed I get, Andrew’s friend Adam ADM became this surprisingly dope and poignant MC and I really got into this record he put out, then later found myself being followed around some Storage Unit property by literally Adam as he’d apparently gotten a job “managing” said property, all of the heels of entire albums criticizing capitalism’s grip on us all and warning against selling out haha.
Anyway, I’m not saying Tony could have saved me, I’m not saying John could have saved me, and I would say despite devoting so much ink to Andrew he was in the position of least power to save me given that the others are direct family members with extremely high value from a credibility perspective. (honestly this could be an indictment of several people who withheld support, this is not to say Andrew is the Bad Guy, frankly all of you are, and if all of you are, that means there’s something bigger and broader conditioning all of you to abandon me by any means and that’s very disappointing because the trendline supports “third hand reputation over first hand experience” with Joe) That said, the reality of my life is I don’t have a lot of “Mexican friends,” so in a way those people are the most important, people who just happen to be Mexican who can kind of immediately cast some doubt and draw upon years of experience. That’s just the way the game is played in America, it’s a race-obsessed place, I was caught up in a race-based narrative, there was a lot of questionable shit being said in official contexts, so in a way … maybe Andrew or someone like him is more of a lynchpin than Good Boys Club Tony My Dad. But I definitely believe given how fucking fickle this whole “accuser for gain” paradigm is that if we can get to a point where all you have to do is point a finger, pretend to be terrified and afraid and traumatized, and get exactly what you want, it should be just as easy for a small faction of My People to push back in equal measure. I sometimes even wonder … WHAT IF I WAS GUILTY? Wouldn’t you still stick up for your bro, for your son, for your friend, just on GP? So it’s weird that even when you’re innocent self-interest runs our culture, people obviously weaponize courts constantly, everything is so corrupt, that even then, even when you’ve in your own mind established credibility by doing your own thing, interacting with people you think are your people, you’re really at that moment on your own because it presents all of those past people with a risk-reward decision that always leads to the risk-averse decision, and that’s not a good place to be when you’re up against the power of the justice system, and the insane amount of informal power it now has via predictive policing algorithms that are presently sentencing me to Life for a long list of things I never did in the past and never will do in the future.
I believe everyone who has ever discriminated against me, stalked me, profiled me, done anything to me, in the name of “threat mitigation,” “prevention,” etc, deserves actual real prison time. You’re not only destroying my life, you’re also gumming up resources and bandwidth, effectively creating a decoy of sorts so that real threats to public safety are not receiving the attention they rightfully deserve. A good parallel might be the "#MeToo movement, where at first it seemed legit, a real crackdown on real rapists, until it became overwhelmingly clear it was an opportunistic BS-fest, a platform for very very privileged women to exact retribution against similarly privileged contemporaries (I hate Trump but yes his trials are a clear example of this) while real victims of real, serious abuse constantly continue to endure real abuse unmitigated). I see this shift in sycophant cops in Washington County, who now, in year 2024, have decided to re-focus on me, 8 years after this baseless allegation, due to super Conservative DA (name) purported emphasis on stamping out “bias crimes.”
Having lived in Harney County, Oregon, and subject to “Real Crazy” Jake from Fields Station’s utterly psychotic pathology of fear and intimidation, among other places, I can very, very, very confidently say that this BS above is what is classically known as “a solution in search of a problem.” People over here don’t even know what the f*** “bias crimes” are because they’ve never even seen anything remotely close to what I’ve been through, and what really goes down in actually biased places. I appreciate the spirit and tone of what Washington County is doing, but if you come to see that I am where the money is going, I honestly have to come back to the same question - why does the general public continue to allow such blatant pandering to be seen as “okay” without scrutinizing the details? All horrible things are sold in as something good. It always is presented as protecting you and it’s the same BS previously afforded to White Women for generations, but is it really protection? And if it is, at whose expense? And what happens when “protected classes” become so corrupted that they are wholly unaware of their own corruption and special treatment, the same way White Women have been by law enforcement for the previous two generations in America? Who has the spine to say “this is disingenuous and we’re taking down innocent men?”
Or if, as I suspect, the alibi is that some private “AI threat detection” third party misled them, then the civil penalties thrust upon every company in ALL of these industries needs to be so severe that they can no longer operate profitably and nobody ever considers entering the market again. This s*** is killing me and my killers continue to believe I’m the Bad Guy all the way down.
Enough of excusing this as “data breaches” by “foreign hackers” at the broker level, or “false positives” at the street level. This is corrupt fascist BS. Americans love to talk about their First and Second Amendment rights. First of all, I have neither. But secondly, why aren’t we putting the same halo on Freedom of Movement? Civil Rights advocates in America overemphasize two themes that become played out and trite - one is the overemphasis on so-called “protected classes,” as if there have never been any outcast white dudes who got discriminated against ever; but also on the “Freedom of Association” thing guaranteed by the First Amendment rather than pushing for stronger protections on the underlying issue, Freedom of Movement. I’m being f***d most harshly while I’m out in public traveling alone, not while I’m “associating” with others (in which case I wouldn’t even be in this position, when you have your own witnesses behind you to corroborate the truth, none of this BS sticks in the first place).
You see this in action at these BS “video analytics” company websites, where all the case studies show Some Lady in a frame with Some White Guy also in the frame, and the claim that “he’s been here 4 times in the past 48 hours,” or “he’s been standing here for 5 minutes” as evidence that their “intelligence” has detected a threat. Are you f**** kidding me??? Where are the real scientists in the room? Where is the pushback here? How is this even legal? Who do you think this stuff appeals to? Fair, objective, and mentally stable justice-oriented, dogma-resistant, critical-thinking, educated people? Of course not! Ha. This is what has enabled the Gatekeeper Class, or as I might call them, God’s Little Army, to make my life a f*** Living Hell.
What is worse is that even this is dishonest. Even as their “behavioral analytics” are an even worse example Snake Oil than snake oil itself, I know via lived experience that they are flagrantly abusing face and voice and object rec to track and target specific individuals, like myself, the instant my likeness passes in front of their cameras, and that it has nothing to do with my "behavior.”
It’s been 8 years since the Great Fake Hate Crime of 2017. Eight. Mothaf****n. Years. Whose architects were clearly the cops, who crafted a very carefully crafted allegation that perfectly fit the description of Criminal Intimidation in a way Someone Who Already Knows the Statute Can Do … and whose starring actress may as well have been Isla Fisher in “Curb Your Enthusiasm” Season 10 Episode 5 … And yet - despite any “smart” algorithm that weights for quality or credibility of complaint, time elapsed, person in question, mitigating circumstances, contradictory evidence, etc, which would clearly point to “okay, take his falsely accused ass off the scaffold already,” the amount of abuse I experience at the hands of public-private tyrants has grown exponentially worse as the market for fake predictive policing tools has exploded to comical dot-com-era proportions with impunity. Obviously “good people” like these never ever have to do actual jail time like me, so please, if any watchdogs view this, see to it that they all face civil consequences so severe that going into the business of third party data and biometric brokering in America ceases to be a viable option for anyone. Otherwise, it is obvious that by year 10, or 15, or —- until the day I die, this “threat” status will never be removed and I’ll never have freedom again because this industry, and its customers, are so desperate to justify themselves and their BS criminal livelihoods that I’m literally all they have. A lot of them engage in the rhetoric of America’s various BS ‘wars,’ the latest trend being the “human trafficking war.” I find that hilarious, as that’s exactly what they’re doing! How is taking random dudes like Joe Leinewber, putting their asses on real-time-trackable watchlists, calling them Something Horrible In the Future Tense That They Are Not, and thus endangering their lives and freedom, setting them up for risky situations by pre-prejudicing entire populations of people against them, not a form of “trafficking” in “humans?” Without me and people like me you don’t have an industry! And with due process and standards and real oversight you don’t have a big enough pool of people to be profitable! The real “human traffickers” are those who are rapidly pivoting from the Prison Industrial Complex to the Predictive Policing Surveillance Complex, setting every idiot with spare time and money to the task of tracking “threats” in their own communities, enabling Digital McCarthyism on every street corner and promoting the dumbest (and very often the most cruel and dishonest) among us to positions of societal power they never should have been given over me, which they surely will continue to abuse like the Karens they are.
I feel that the Real Villain in this whole “crime spree” I committed was actually local charlatan Clint Shamblin (upon searching 12/2024 I guess he’s gone to Sebastopol CA a place which honestly doesn’t seem like the Clint Vibe but OK, and actually slightly fucked up that that’s a stone’s throw from where I got Kahn who I reference below). I had happened to move into a rental across the street from a church where Clint was the pastor. I was the New Guy In Town, I had 4 roommates, and two of us in particular took great pleasure in binge-drinking on our covered patio (my whole life in Portland I’ve coveted a covered fucking patio, this was finally my chance to enjoy one). It was a known fact from Day 5 I would say that (a) Clint and Clint’s People had some inexplicable mistrust of me, were already launching absurd claims of “break-ins” and “dog attacks” (my dog was 16 at the time, 7 months from what would be his final day here, incapable of climbing the 4-step staircase at the time) that had ramped up apparently the Day We Moved Here. After my apparent “hate crime” I just pulled up a seat on the patio couch, cracked a cider, and prepared to just kick it with my boy Shere Kahn and any roommates who planned to join us as per usual.
Clint took it upon himself to come straight to my location (look, I can’t prove nefarious intent, I can’t prove location tracking, but let’s just say it’s strange that Kahn became a target of “aggression” complaints in the very years of life when he WASN’T aggressive wherever my phone was located, just as Brody did, a dog who was never aggressive even in his prime thus adding more suspicion to these bizarre flurries of allegations obviously targeting the dogs by way of association with ME), launch into a bitchy little tirade about all the horrors I had brought to the neighborhood, and it was obvious this dude knew nothing factual about me. I was like 4 days removed from finishing the Boston Marathon and this dude, like others in his parish, was just talking to me like this Criminal (haha! I became one seconds later!) and just bullshitting his fucking ass off about Why I’m So Bad. This is normal for me now, I just let these bigots rape my reputation now here in Montclair because through Clint and Jake above I learned the lesson of how much power these sorry little honkies have over me by way of a simple 911 call … but at the time I was like “say what motherfucker?!” Like I just did what I think anybody would do honestly. I just calmly descended my steps, was like “uh you are violating dude, get the fuck away from my life and keep Kahn’s name out your lying ass mouth,” and he tried to double down. Soooo … I did the only rational thing I could think of and doused his head in the cider I was holding.
I honestly thought the Clint thing was going to be the more heinous allegation in court! Just because it involved cider touching his person, as opposed to foot kicking car, maybe it’s just the fact I’m such a God Damned Commie but in my mind petty property damage just isn’t that big of a deal so I underestimated how other Americans - disguised as poor helpless recently arrived vulnerable Mexican immigrants 30 years after arriving who are routinely complained about by other Mexicans for swindling them as quinceanera dress suppliers and raise multiple red flags as to what they’ll do to separate other people from their money - perceive that transgression (the company is called Princesas, Gresham, Oregon, I don’t even dare Yelp Link it, anything I do DIGITALLY connecting to this woman gets me weeks to months of crazy suffocating Full Court Press persecution by cops and feds “preventing hate crimes.” I genuinely did not expect that denting a car was considered SO much more serious. But I also suspect Clint was kind of trying to put his future prospects in consideration, knowing what a piece of shit he had been to be prior to the apparently unforgivable beer-pouring which brought like 9 local news TV stations to the crib to portray me as an unhinged maniac (I wonder WHO has outsized influence and pull with them), and so he quietly dropped his charges, in my opinion not because he was a nice guy but because he understood the possibility I might expose his bullshit through any proceedings and that my roommates could corroborate (a) what a punk ass bitch he had been to me over an extended period of time, and (b) that Kahn was an elderly incontinent man on hospice and his allegations that sparked the need to set his bullshit straight were obviously maliciously motivated.
Brody had to undergo the same bullshit everyday of his fucking life here in Montclair, from everyone, not just residents, even our local PET STORE “Western Pet Supply” had employees fraudulently alleging he attacked them the ONE time I attempted to take him there. And … I had to take it up the ass the whole time, I just did, turned the other cheek thousands of times just to give Brody his walks while the community cast stones at him. And it’s obvious this was based on “sharing” of disinformation paired with real-time location, the fact that Brody was not EVER an “aggression” issue and Kahn actually DID have those issues and yet, Kahn NEVER once was complained about until JOE and JOE’S devices alone were on the radar, which were always tied to Kahn’s real-time location, which was long long long after Kahn’s aggression issues had simply faded away - it was very, very, very clear to me, let’s just say, that the allegations against Kahn were nefariously motivated and made by illegal access to his location and mine, not his or my actual behavior. It became crystal clear when I finally got Brody and saw the difference in between how we were treated when I did have a trackable device in pocket, and when I did not. And that’s to say nothing of the kinds of people coming at us, very very very very conspicuously “different” from the normal demographic patterns, very concentrated in the Conservative Christian bloc, not a random representative sampling of residents in the area, this part frustrates me the most, how OBVIOUS that is if you come out and ground-truth it but I can’t prove in these stupid little one-on-one “she said she felt afraid for her safety!” pissing sessions where we’ve been targeted and isolated and attacked. There is absolutely no doubt all of this, like the episode above, were brought about via device ID which later became biometric ID and left us powerless to not only defend ourselves against false allegations, but against literal stalking by the very people using said false allegations to portray us both as dangers to the public. Hey Western, this isn’t totally an indictment of y’all, I did notice over time this place backed off of us, they weren’t as bad as Clint, or Fields Station Jake who seemed on a mission to ruin us, but there was definitely the indisputable Year of Constant Intimidation and there was certainly no advocacy, there was nobody out here going to bat for Brody to set the bullshit straight, his reputation (and mine I’m sure) became that of an unpredictable dangerous dog and that became the rationale for his murder.
Ever since then, I have been treated as both a “racist” person by, ironically, both your classic SJW apologist as well as many, many so-called “people of color” who don’t see the hypocrisy of that, that they are discriminating against me by way of a narrative fed to them by a third party (often very pro-Establishment, often very hardcore Right Wing, not any first-hand knowledge of who I am); and a “maniac” by - well, let’s just say this is the biggest pool of haters on Earth. This sucks because it attracts two types of discrimination I cannot f*** stand. One is the Bogeyman s**, the whole “keep away from my family!” types. The ones who believe I didn’t merely cop a BS plea under duress and believe there are voices in my head that could compel me to harm them at any moment, or else a fierce ideological motive driving violent ideation (my official ideology, for the record, is “IDGAF Group-Think MFs, leave the f alone”; and the others are the patronizers, ones who wish me a great day and advise me to “be well” and “be safe” because they’re led to believe I’m “mentally ill” and need extra coddling and sympathy.
There is not a single thing about me that is crazy. There is certainly not a single thing about me that is considering harming (what a ludicrous adjective) “self or others” (haha, anyone ever been through this BS rigamarole? That very question makes me immediately harbor thoughts of harming the sorry ass bureaucrat asking it haha) Everything I describe is real and a major tip-off as to what garbage the Surveillance Planet is going to be for your future generations.
There is not a single thing about me that is racist. I can (sort of but not really, as a guy who’s faced more very real, very harsh discrimination than most will ever comprehend) understand how this can be misconstrued. If I’m apparently throwing shade at you in some public space, and you are inclined to immediately cry “racism,” consider this. There were probably hundreds of other people of your race I interacted between you and the last person of your race who made the same claim; and literally hundreds of thousands of others I merely passed by on the street or whatever. Did it ever cross your mind that I hate you as a person individually, based specifically on how you are treating me, how you are discriminating against me, the lies about me you perpetuate, and nothing else? If not, keep on playing that race card!
Anyway - in my defense - and this is on top of my adamant insistence that “crazy” was merely a cop-out due to immense Trial by Media pressure placed upon me and my horrifically awful family “support system,” which is a model for classic Victim Blaming (all you women who were raped in the 1900’s and “crazy-made” for speaking out, I feel you) … all the people who have ever accused me of any form of “ism” were already part of a rabid out-of-control identity movement or gripped by a momentary hysteria, and when you’re subservient to US authorities there is no shortage of “momentary hysteria.” It’s one propaganized crisis to the next and yet the same people, like me, are always the future tense crime suspects.
Anyway, not racist, not crazy, but very much a target of predictive policing, as sourced to a community of private and public “eyes and ears” who themselves are so prejudiced against me as to cause me to lose all respect for all people. What’s worse, their prejudices are fed to them top-down by their authorities - these are police-driven narratives, nobody else’s - and that, I have learned is far, far worse than any innate prejudice one might hold. For example, suppose a child is born in Fields, Oregon, the most prejudiced horrible s**hole I’ve ever been a resident of. That child, when they come of age, cannot be blamed entirely for the xenophobic manners they come to adopt as adults. Those things have been coached into them from birth by their entire community and they’ve been deprived of exposure to anything else. But suppose they go off to school somewhere else, gain exposure to a broad array of people, develop relationships with them … chances are those biases and attitudes fade via exposure therapy.
By contrast, when a Big Lie, or stereotype, or malicious rumor, is fed to a person by authority - regardless of that person’s ideology or pre-existing biases and shockingly to me, even level of educational attainment, that prejudice is nearly impossible to erase. Examples in my life are very real and tangible - this guy, in this car, with these plates, wearing these clothes, with this face, is a threat to kidnap your kids. To break into your house. To take your packages from your porch. To shoplift from your store. To attack your elderly tenants. To attack your non-Caucasian patrons. To attack your female staff. To vandalize your walls. To derail your country’s critical infrastructure. To sell your wife into a sex trafficking ring. To intentionally spread COVID to the population. This is actually real s*** I’ve been through in the predictive policing realm, a very murky, dark, unaccountable little sub-world that needs to be completely eliminated from the planet before it’s too late. This paradigm does not lead anywhere good even if it’s claims seem virtuous at surface level.
I am not the “racist,” I am not the “maniac,” and I am certainly not the “threat” that law enforcement, psychiatry (don’t even get me started on these puppets), or their informal private-public supporting casts would have you believe. They are. And the tools they continue to deploy to real-time track me and put me in one vicarious position after another need to be totally snuffed out sooner than later, as they’ve already led to far, far worse things done to far better people than what I’ve been through.
If you are one of the petty little trolls disguised as a reasonable decent person who insists on labeling me “mentally ill,” please do so based on the evidence presented on my own page. At least there is no lying or claiming I said something I did not say or do. I feel this is a fairer forum from which to crucify me, which I know you will continue to do.
Or if you’d rather, consider my latest “mental health crisis,” which was this email submitted to local paper OregonLive.com, whose articles have gained global syndication (while all links to my running pages and other positive news disappears almost as quickly as I post it), and thereby destroyed my life long, long after the Kangaroo Courts had their way with me and made me the Face of Racism and Future Tense Terrorists according to their own reductive narratives which served not the apparently monolithic minority classes they pretend to protect, but in fact, their own self-image and ego which is overly dependent on being their matriarchal protector.
Essentially, 7.5 years after this all took place, I sought expungement (I have not heard back 6 months later from the government and I’m 100% certain they’ll come up with a reason to deny that is rooted in “public safety concerns”), and while I was at it I also sought removal of libelous links via what at surface level seemed a very decent, reasonable, human-to-human process as outlined here. I was so encouraged by the brand name “Clean Slate,” and the timing (2023) … in my mind, I was like “I wonder if this was partially motivated by their guilty conscience about how dirtily they did me.
The reply was as curt as it was heartless.
Dear Mr. Leineweber,
Thank you for writing. We looked into your request. We understand you've had several past exchanges with editors on the stories that you reference here and that they elected to keep the stories on the site. The committee considers that decision to be the news organization's official response and doesn't plan to reconsider it at this point.
Sincerely,
The Clean Slate Committee
So … I got drunk and wrote this. : ) I haven’t even re-read it. Like pretty much everything on this website. It’s pretty embarrassing, but hey, if Joe Leineweber isn’t going to keep it real, then who the f*** will?
Well Thought-Out Letter to The Oregonian, October 4, 2024
Within less than 24 hours, Washington County Police - including not coincidentally a former member of my bullshit Multnomah County “Mental Health” Court team - were at my private home asking to speak to me under the pretense of “concerned neighbors (they are always anonymous) reported a ‘mental health crisis.”
Anyone ever read or watched “One Flew Over the Cukoo’s Nest?” Or “Cool Hand Luke?” I just can’t seem to “STAY DOWN,” can I?
I’ve mentioned this previously before on my page, but let’s just be clear. Rene Gonzalez is this publication’s guy! They love this dude. This sorry ass Republican motherfucker is not more “Mexican” than my accuser. He’s the embodiment, in fact, of what real Mexicans would criticize as “Americanization.” I’m not bullshitting either when I say he’s LITERALLY one of the motherfuckers that has been summoned to the Ida B Wells track while I’m doing a workout to keep tabs on me. Don’t even get me started on how disgusted I am, and how disgusted Ida B Wells would be, that this prejudiced little white shithole is named after her. Doesn’t matter if I’m Mile 1 or Mile 10, I’m just a god damned suspect and threat on “Ida B Wells’” property haha.
I believe this represents a clear-cut example of the power balance that exists in my life. They believe the content of my letter constitutes a “threat” and “aggression.” I believe I could not respect their opinion less. I believe it’s important to understand the difference between raw unbridled “aggression” with no context, and righteous anger borne of a series of injustices many would consider unimaginable in America. I continue to attract, since that day the Gestapo arrived to silence me, heightened and obviously unnecessary / unwanted attention from these pigs, and I’m quite sure it all flows from the mere pressing of the “Forward” button by one of these cowardly "journalists” to the police station they work next door to, along with some BS pretense like “I’m feeling threatened.” This particular episode preceded the Chicago Marathon by 3 days and I feel strongly influenced the horrific amount of police attention I got once I touched down in the Windy City, which was nothing short of heartbreaking, and yet typical for how I’m treated before marathons in America, and nowhere else.
These people make me so sick and are the only reason I feel only the slightest bit of empathy for MAGA people. I definitely absolutely wholeheartedly agree Trump is a POS but I do not disagree that the weaponization of courts against him was done by total P’s of S as well. And I hear how they try to frame his “crimes” and how arbitrary it all is and yes, I do see my own predicament. I have zero respect for the so-called “Establishment” Liberals of the Pacific Northwest. There was some point elsewhere in my page where I remarked about how I’ve lived with and around real, bona fide, all-in RACISTS in both Texas and Harney County, Oregon. I have to believe all of these people, who discriminated against me blatantly for being too “woke” (that was not yet a term by then) are getting a kick out of this. As they should! Just watching these fools eat their own. You guys owe Aimee Greene and Therese Bottomly and Everton Bailey, and whatever-the-f** my accuser’s name (who deserves a MASSIVE sentence - bearing false witness, especially out of malice or spite where is literally no reason to do so) a “thank you” note!
In previous posts I’ve brought up “Horseshoe Theory,” which I think is far more valid in reality than it gets credit for - the notion that two polar opposites on the political spectrum share more in common than they don’t, and gravitate toward authoritarianism unless checked. I continue to feel that personally, just as the McCarthy types are obsessed with outing “Communists” and “disloyal” people, or “terrorists,” the sickeningly soft Politically Correct nerds of Portland Oregon are uniquely obsessed with outing the “racists” where there are none, nitpicking the slightest of semantic transgressions or (more often manufacturing total horseshit out of literally nothing at all) to “prove” someone is a racist, sexist, whatever-ist, and it seems there is a desperate ego-driven (and sometimes even monetary, it seems people make entire careers out of fake crusades for fake justice) need to keep finding new evidence of injustice even as they’re doling it out flagrantly to me via the more bipartisan and socially acceptable bigotry of our time, that of “Community Safety.”
A new demographic that has joined this effort that completely baffles me is America’s AAPI community. I don’t honestly understand this. I just know what I’m seeing, and where I’m seeing it, and what the rationales seem to be. I first experienced this while simply being a tourist in the Bay Area before and after the San Francisco Marathon. This horrible discrimination was repeated when I traveled for the LA and Chicago marathons where, unbeknownst to me (mind you I’m booking these things through abstract maps with zero knowledge of who lives where, simply trying to find the sweet spot between value-pricing and proximity-to-start-line) my hotels and daily walks took me through such neighborhoods as Bridgeport or Japan Town, etc, and the nightmare of Preventing Joe From Having Equal Treatment Under The Law was repeated very, very aggressively. It’s reinforced in my mind the vast discrepancy between Americans and Normal People. I’ve seen urban American people go after me with the same vicious zeal over “race equity” that I saw go after me under cover of my not being American or White Enough in Eastern Oregon, and the only unifying theme is - the rationale is safety, the “threat” is me, but the reality is bigotry … against me. It’s Angertainment disguised as something virtuous. People desperately in need of a scapegoat. It’s so sad and pathetic. They operate in the extremely dangerous gray areas of “prevention and deterrence.” My point is - I don’t think Asian people in Asia would be as shitty to me as Asian American people in America. There’s a thing called “Americanization” that occurs and it clearly pits people against each other and puts them in these tight little Identity Boxes the way I simply flat-out do not see abroad, and refuse to do myself. While I still prefer the tyranny of the Liberal Establishment Fake Hate Crime Prevention Mob to the Real Mob (I am certain if I had stayed in Harney County to this day I would be dead by now and it would be officially called an “accident” or “suicide,” nobody will ever come close to that Harney County Oregon / Humboldt County Nevada demographic if terms of coming face to face with pure hate), I also take some solace in knowing how incompetent and misled urban SJWs are, that they are easily duped and prone to being defensive and emotional versus - as I stated above - realizing that they are part of a vicious game whose end goal is to neutralize Joe Leineweber by any means possible. But they are also very dogmatically attached to their narratives and, due to living in places where “racism” is not an issue at all, there’s nobody else for them to focus on if they let me off the hook so there’s that frustration, that I feel too many people’s self-esteem is attached unhealthily to never acknowledging that they were flat-out wrong about me, and since I’m tired of waiting on these losers, I continue to explore options abroad (harder than it sounds, I don’t know what I’ll do for money to make it more than a temporary escape).
A sad thing about the relatively recent vilification of me by the AAPI community (or more likely private third party “AI threat detection apps created by white Conservatives and sold to them), I suspect due to the sole fact that I have been seen on “AI-enhanced” surveillance cameras walking around your neighborhoods by myself - is that I was supporting your communities. I’m out there off the Tourist Trap Path spending money with mom n pops, Holes in the Wall, places not on the “restaurants near you” guide supplied by the hotel industry …it’s how I’ve always rolled but it’s very clear the “Anomalous Behavior” alerts have now turned My Entire Life’s Patterns into a Future Tense Hate Crime because so many people allow themselves to be deluded by Fascists. Here’s the most ludicrous example of this following me back home. I mentioned being discriminated against during my SF Marathon / Oakland trip and not seeing the end of it to this day 2 years later. Well, one funny detail about the SF Marathon is that there was a sponsor which supplied some of the on-course “goo.” Anyone who runs marathons knows what Goo is, the 1 oz maltodextrin packs with artificial fruit flavors that are supposed to give you a boost. Well, at SF the packets were these giant foil-wrapped squares containing an entirely different kind of fruit goo. Most dudes taking them were like “ew!” and I started hoarding them, as they were really working for me. I ran my Old Man PR (3:03 was my best since I started running again in 2023) fueled by these mystery giant goo packs. The trouble was they were by a Japanese company using only Japanese characters on the label so I couldn’t google the name to find more when I got home. So - I just thought “why not go to my local Japanese-owned store Uwajimaya and see if I can just find and match the labels even if I can’t read them.” Sure enough they carry it! So I went there and grabbed a few after coming home. When I got home, there was a f*** brigade of cessnas flying circles around my house for 2 straight hours and Washington County / Beaverton Police cars posted up at every possible intersection I might traverse in order to leave my home.
I didn’t fully understand until about the 5th repeating of this errand that the variable was Uwajimaya to be honest. Who would? Why would you initially associate this ridiculous amount of “terrorist prevention” attention based on going shopping for $10 worth of Mystery Fruit Goo down the road. As time wore on, I depleted my inventory, and went back a few times. Each time I went back to Uwajimaya to reload on Goo, I came home - or to whichever my car went next - to find the same exact s*** show of planes, choppers, cops, EMS, a ludicrous Show of Force, surrounding my location. So that’s how America purports to be stopping so-called “bias crimes” against so-called vulnerable people, and as with all instances where I’m treated this way, I go out of my way and always will from this day forward to not support Uwajimaya or independently owned AAPI businesses due to this treatment. So that’s the reality of what we self-congratuate for “deterring” versus the narrative of what we claim to be deterring. And it’s not just the $10-20 purchase, don’t think these massive first responder deployments don’t cost all of you- everyone who funds their bond initiatives and pays taxes - a freaking ton of money. And here I am feeling like there’s literally nowhere else I can go in this community without the guarantee of this vicious, utterly insane, and extremely traumatizing discrimination in the name of - stopping discriminatory attacks by supposedly insane people. This is only fitting, of course, as we were already warned that Doublethink would come to dominate our social order in the coming Surveillance Society. Mind, you this, as I understand is based on the following “evidence.” I was falsely accused and acquited of a fake “hate crime” by a single, solitary woman 7.5 years ago, who is not even Asian and has never been vetted in any meaningful way for character, integrity, etc. I have traveled to, apparently, ethnically diverse cities repeatedly to run marathons (LA, Chicago, SF, Oak) and gone on walks which apparently were through majority-Asian neighborhoods. I coincidentally discovered a product only available through Asian-owned grocers in America, and sought to be a repeat customer of said brand. I could be wrong, as I’m not actively tracking ME the way apparently others are, but I believe this would constitute the full extent to which I have interfaced with Asian immigrants in America, this sequence of utterly dubious garden variety utterly normal behavior, and this guy, the author of this page, taken in combination, routinely trigger this full-fledged Five-Alarm response from a comically massive contingent of First Responders and Concerned Citizens and apparently amateur pilots as if responding to an active shooter. One thing I know from living this BS is that absolutely none of this drama has ever stopped a single hate crime and likely lays the foundation for the next one by diverting so very many resources away from the real threats who are most likely the direct relatives of the First Responders and Concerned Citizens in denial about their own prejudices.
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Final commentary about the AAPI Community and it’s an indictment of younger generations. While I was awaiting my so-called “Hate Crime” trial in 2017 I was on house arrest at the home of the parents of a high school friend. Oh my God, I forgot to add to my “Not Racist” resume I expounded upon in the comments under my Vegas video that I also dated once an Asian girl (their daughter) haha. They caught wind of the ordeal, they learned I had lost my lease and was not exactly enjoying my house arrest time at my parents’ home, and stepped up. Father = Caucasian “good ol boy” from The Dalles (Rest In Peace, Doug, you helped me out so much dude!); Mother = Japanese American woman from Vail, Oregon. I always felt fairly assessed by Doug and Sharlene because not only were they of two different races, they were also from rural America, and nobody knows quite like rural Americans who have lived both the racial and urban divides the difference between Real Discrimination which they’ve seen plenty of and populist modern “racism” which might have a number of motives, distortions, or just plain frivolity etc, involved, to say nothing of vastly different definitions depending on whose jurisdiction you find yourself crucified in. All was pretty chill, I would even argue we had fun sometimes, I thought Doug and Sharlene were actually really funny people sometimes, and then came the day the adult kids, who were (I thought) my old friends, were going to visit with their various husbands / children, pets, etc. At first I’m like “cool, it’s been a long time, would love to catch up!” and then, some days later … “Our daughter doesn’t feel comfortable having you around her family while they visit, you need to leave.” Something like that. I couldn’t believe what a slap in the face that was, that here I’d literally lived, ate, slept, etc, in the exact same home that her Japanese American mother lived at, and my same-age-peers were the ones who pulled the “I don’t feel safe around Joe the racist” card, by the way the very people who could and should easily have been the ones to say “we’ve known Joe for years and nothing about this aligns with our relationship with or knowledge of Joe.” In essence, the power of media and police messaging was that strong in these women’s minds. It’s hard to say it’s the most disrespected or discriminated against I’ve felt (because all that is just par for the course in my life today, 7.5 years later), but it stung coming from people you think are your “insiders,” the ones who don’t listen to the noise and propaganda. Essentially what I understood in that moment was “we trust Jussie Smollette and Aimee Greene much, much more than the guy we actually know and have had real life experiences with, none of which ever evidenced anything resembling racism.” I think that would be my message to those who see themselves as these crusaders for justice in the Portland area (there are so many of you here and throughout Liberal America). I find you people hilarious, you are so anti-police when the Establishment Media tells you to be - George Floyd is not the most egregious case, there are instances of executions all over the place that were only covered for decades by Alternative Media that you didn’t give a shit about - and this is the same Establishment Media that tells you what to be afraid of by way of FBI press releases everyday - human traffickers, scammers, terrorists, fraudsters, “anti-government extremists,” “transnational criminals” - and they’re the same exploitative self-interested establishment telling you I’m “racist,” feeding you yet another lie and Straw Man Bogeyman to make good on all those years of internment camps (Japanese America), to say nothing of the lynchings, killings, and arson of your homes (speaking to treatment of the Chinese specifically during the Gold Rush age) and the real reasons China Towns exist in the first place. And today in Year 2024 I’ve got the AAPI community going in on me based on disinformation supplied by those aforementioned murderers’ and jailers’ ancestors! Again I find that funny, that an Established Order built on discrimination, utterly dominated to this day by Anglo-American interests, people, culture - points the finger at some White Guy on the outs with them and says “he’s racist!” and you just dive right in, not seeing how it’s part of a broader divide-and-conquer endeavor and you’re being positively reinforced for being the agent that neutralizes someone who supports, or at the least does not suppress or threaten, your own interests or people.
I always go back to the media cycle after I’ve been eviscerated by illegal profiling in a specific place, like Chicago or LA or Oakland, to see why I was treated so horribly in the first place. Clearly there was angst in Oakland China Town (where this new “AAPI Attack Threat” trend all started for me) about people being attacked, and yet no clear connection to me. Yet, it seems to make no difference. Whatever you read in the below articles - that is my profile now in the future tense. Rather than simply deal with crimes as they occur, punishing the actually guilty culprit, and unlike in my case demanding actual real evidence (you can clearly see people being attacked in these videos, you’ll never see that in my life because I don’t actually do crazy s** and I’m not actually crazy person), there is an irony to “predictive policing” clearly on display here. They wait for something to happen, maybe 2 or 3 things, so they can call it a trend. They then start identifying people “at risk” of committing the same crime instead of simply calling a spade a spade, punishing the specific criminal for the specific act. This does literally nothing to stop the next attack. They are always wrong, and they are pre-prejudicing already-prejudiced people against people like me in order to manufacture an environment where conflict, undue hostility, is inevitable, and ubiquitous surveillance societies are normalized (which if history repeats itself, will be used against the AAPI community before you know it). If you tell 1,000 small business owners and security guards and cops in a condensed radius that Joe Leineweber is a threat to commit a racist hate crime in China Town, don’t be surprised when there’s a heated exchange of words between Joe Leineweber and Some Business Owner Who is Following Me Around His Fucking Store or Some Bullshit Cop or Karen Who Won’t Back Up Off My Nutz. And because the Official nature of the threat I pose pertains to both - “bias crime” and “mental illness” - what do you think I become accused of the second I say so much as “f** off and lick my balls?” Exactly. Which is not fair to me. This is all about stopping prejudiced people, right? Well, if you stand against people acting out of bias and prejudice, how do you not see how these very systems are pre-prejudicing you against me? Ridiculous, utterly ridiculous. I think that’s even worse than “innate” prejudice, which I feel can be assuaged via exposure. I experience time after time people who actively engage in hunting behaviors against me more similar to Slave Patrols because the very people whose ancestors were the architects of America’s systemic discrimination told them to view me as a threat. It seems a dereliction of duty to various ancestors who might see this more clearly than the present generation, which did not have access to the really, really, really bad days of racial discrimination.
https://www.nytimes.com/2022/10/04/opinion/racism-mental-illness-us.html
I just want to reiterate that, so far, I’m guilty of two things - walking through China Town and buying a bunch of food, taking one ferry from China Town A to China Town B to get more food, and daring to run a 3:03 marathon in the in-betwen-hours. And ever since this Oakland / SF trip, I’ve not lived down my “AAPI Hate Crime / Mental Illness” predictive policing profile. And these are people who claim they are sick of being discriminated against. Got it, won’t do it again, not a single dollar will ever leave my wallet ever again in any US city where Asian people have small businesses. The experience of being anywhere near an area where I am a minority - which according to American Fascist cops means I’m targeting others while they so obviously are targeting me - has become so degrading and stressful and scary that I just don’t do it. Good job “community safety” zealots, way to be resilient and rational in the face of reactive political surface level fake solutions to overblown issues. Way to zero in on all the wrong people. Good luck preventing the next “hate crime” by a “mentally ill” person. Hint - you won’t. All of the resources as far as I can tell will be diverted to actually fomenting conflict with white Liberal people who simply chose to visit with no ill intent. And this manipulation can be subtle and difficult to detect in a hypersimplistic “alert” society, which by the way is utterly and completely biased in favor of law enforcement and Conservative self-interest.
Another small “not racist” thing this just reminded me of but might not be very credible - I used to literally live here by the way, I lived and worked in Berkeley, in a very ethnically diverse office, people from all over the world, and it just occurred to me that this is an apparent “asset” in my “not racist” narrative. Or it might not be? I’ve always been kind of a pariah in society who doesn’t go overly out of his way to win others over and I doubt my coworkers there would say anything other than “he is a fucking asshole” haha. I don’t know? Hey, if any of you read this and don’t hate me, or dislike-but-empathize, maybe say something in my defense?
As a Portland guy, I’m amused in my own way, that Donald Trump beat Kamala Harris by a landslide. I know she’s the overwhelming favorite in this town. And yet - she’s the DA of this Bay Area and she’s the biggest promoter of this Fascist “War on Human Trafficking” and disingenuous “protecting the vulnerable” I have found myself targeted by, which does nothing even remotely close to its purported mission, which - based on my travels through diverse cities and countries - feed into and allow this Fascist fed gov and its private "algorithmically determined risk” programs to lynch me. This is all about taking innocuous activity and manufacturing monsters, just like the post-9/11 era did to innocent Middle Eastern people. Put another way, the people who created the War On Terror don’t really see “terror prevention” as their primary objective, those who manufactured the “missing child” epidemic of the ‘80’s cared not one iota for children, and those manufacturing the many, many “wars” I cannot even keep track of today - those aforementioned plus “transnational crime” whatever that is - care not about stopping transnational crime. What they enjoy, aside from money and power, is watching you serve as willing agents of my destruction, wholly unaware of why I’m actually your target, while they themselves never have to get their hands dirty. Wake up and think for yourself, decide who I am on your own terms, by your own judgment and discretion. What I’ve seen in Portland and in America is a swapping of roles, in the 1960’s, the Liberals were the unpredictable wild cards, the people who came up with their own ideas, their own unconventional means of fighting power, the Conservatives were the stuffy old Establishment, it was the Colonies vs. the British so to speak. I see those roles reversing lately, the Conservatives are adapting and finding new means and strategies and tactics to get what they want, to win people over, to take back power, to win the hearts and minds of the public, and the Liberals are just marching in lockstep parroting the same tired ass Roe v. Wade populist bullshit, talking the talk of “race” without doing shit for the very races they depend on to be electable. This “racism” narrative against me is very much a part of that! I believe I was crucified by a Conservative police establishment, which is to be expected. What is shocking is the blind subservience of Liberals to their messaging, that they are so easily distracted by the Fake Threat that is me like a little kitten chasing a laser pointer on a shag carpet. So thoroughly disappointed in the status quo of Liberal America and so thoroughly unsurprised by the resurrection of Trumpism in Year 2024, especially having seen him attacked by a partisan judicial system the same was I was. I wish my case were made as publicly available, 99%+ of us don’t ever get such a public platform to reveal what personally or politically motivated bullshit our charges and allegations are.
Police are a pure s*** institution, psychiatry is an absolute echo chamber of comfortably institutionalized “experts” spouting off basic acronyms and drawing highly questionable lines from self-reported information to fake medical “diseases” of the mind - and the people who run around voluntarily serving as eyes, ears, observers, and reporters for both of these massive fraud fests are the most pathetic human beings ever to grace this planet. I believe one of these silly neighborhood narcs formally accused me of a “hate crime” in 2017 as a matter of fact, and the punk a** police will use this very post to present me as an even greater threat to her safety, and to the billions of other people who happen to be her same gender or race (yes there are literally billions), because slanderous reductivism is where these people and their corrupt institutions live. It’s like they depend on it. Or enjoy it. I can’t tell which. They roll around in that s** like the Pigs they serve and protect.
And by the way - this can serve as further evidence for you Crabs in a Bucket in the sorry ass USA who just can’t go on living apparently without doubling down on the narrative that I’m “mentally ill.” This is quite a “rant,” the go-to American discreditor of anything resembling an impassioned rebuttal of malicious slander. This website, and this page, are my gift to you. I’m serving my apparent insanity and apparent biases up on a platter for you vultures to peck at. Go run with it and keep me on that crucifix. It’s published for all to see … how crazy I am, that is. May it also serve as your evidence of how biased I am, since I’m calling attention to various instances where people of specific ethnic groups did me wrong and I insisted on my innocence. As I understand this, this is evidence of my “unconscious bias” which is borne of my “white privilege.” Moreover, and again based on my understanding of my widespread reputation according to people who don’t know me at all- if all fails and neither “insane” nor “racist” seems sticky enough, there’s always the “asshole” label, that I’m just somehow deserving of that word while the rest of you aren’t because you treat me so fairly, kindly, and equally. Keep those “aggression” complaints rolling in and do all in your power to obscure the context. Maybe the real “assholes” are the ones convincing you it’s really about me vs. their group identity because, well, they’re such f*** assholes that they would sell their own child out to evade their own culpability.